Lying in bed this morning, listening to Camille get ready to work the opening shift at Whole Foods, I got to thinking about Blogland. While it's a fun challenge to try and get across the essence of my days, of my heart and soul in written word, it's not always easy. And I began to hope I was being successful at it. Because what has filled my posts over the last couple of months has spoken a lot of struggle. And I'm so NOT a Debbie Downer in real life. In person, I am strong and upbeat and trust that everything happens for a reason and that this is the karmic path I've chosen to...work shit out. :)
I share the depth and daily workings of it on here because I want to be a person you can count on to be candid and open about life. Everybody has their difficulties, it's part of this crazy existence. Being human is that common denominator we all share. And seeing others for their humaness can be a redemption in itself.
So I'm just sayin'....
I'm really feeling my life progress. I'm at a place where this inner work is churning with incredible power and force. Entering my Saturn Return. But I'm doing good, I swear. My Irish Grandpa used to say, "Just because there's snow on the roof doesn't mean there's not fire in the furnace." I think he meant it a little differently than I'm meaning it here. But hey, there's snow on the roof, and a fire buring in the whole rest of myself here!
The job prospects are opening up. I actually have choices to make as to the best one for me. I've never in my life experienced any worry whatsoever about employment. It was a strange couple of months that left me filled with empathy. I'm so ready. I want to get back to work, the days I love, full up with children.
I, for one, am very grateful for your candor. There is too much pressure in our world to put on a happy face and then we all end up feeling lonely and like we're the only ones who experience ups AND downs. I think it's healthy to share the negative with the positive.
Posted by: Heather | June 03, 2011 at 09:05 AM
... and what beautiful snow it is on that roof... I appreciate your always keepin' it real, Busha! Go get 'em!!!
Posted by: tracey k in ohio | June 03, 2011 at 01:25 PM
To use you words, You are doing good Marianne. The reason I love your blog is because you keep it real. We all have our shit to work out and when I find honesty, i take a deep breath of fresh air. I love the human spirit in all of us and yours is larger than life. I thank you a million times for your blog. It brings me to a good reality. Saturn return is a phrase I heard for the first time last week from my therapist. I love the idea. Power to the Saturn return in all of us. :-)
Posted by: Karen Maestas | June 03, 2011 at 07:09 PM
Even though I don't say it enough, I love your posts. They always make me feel more hopeful!
Posted by: angela | June 06, 2011 at 02:44 PM