Righty Tighty, Lefty Loosy. That's how my dad taught me to remember when screwing something on or off. This morning my head is so full of thoughts I just want to unscrew it and place it on the windowsill to look out into the beautiful sunshine for the day. I want a day off from thinking. I'm trying to organize so many things at once I feel pressure in the front of my forehead. Not one cancer thought actually. Just thoughts about my kids and what is going on in each of their lives. And thoughts about my life and how I want to live it going forward from cancer (I guess that could be considered a cancer thought, but not really. it's a moving away from cancer thought.) I've already mediatated and pulled a tarot card. Daughter of Pentacles. Talked to two of my kids and tried to shop fabric online. I made french toast out of the seed and nut loaf I made last night. And drank a cup of yesterday's coffee. I have soothing music playing and will get up and wash the dishes soon. I cut a daphne from the blooming plant outside my bedroom door and put it in a vase in the bathroom. I want to go to the city, and I want to do some art. The laundry pile is daunting. I love my new wallet. And my new sheepskin slippers. I should vaccuum. I love garlic. It's supposed to be beautiful weather today. There is a very loud duck out on the creek - I want to go say hi. I have those gift certificates, I should go get a massage or a pedicure. Tonight is Fiona's birthday celebration. I need to wrap her gift. I want a dog. It's almost noon. I gotta get out of here into the sunlight.
See what I mean?